Monday, September 18, 2006
Alternative Location
I wrote this originally to accompany the photo on my blog for today but for a couple reasons decided I would prefer to share it only on this site.
I want to thank you all, my friends, for your encouragement. The last two and a half months have been awesome. If not always pleasant, relaxing and "easy", they have been GREAT! I have learned quite a bit and grown, too. I have always been afraid of failing, of trying something and having it not work out the way I wanted. I was scared out of my mind that I would try to stay in Europe and I wouldn't be able to do it. Financial, social, and time pressure all woke me before 7am every single day. I was scared. Sometimes I still am. But because you guys encouraged me, I feel like I have made great strides toward not letting fear control me. Everything isn't completely fixed yet, but I feel now like I have at least given it my best. I won't wonder in 6 months, "What if I had just tried?"
"Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs
even though checkered by failure than to take rank with these poor spirits
who neither enjoy much or suffer much. Be wise, they live in the gray twilight
that know not of victory, nor defeat. Nor true sorrow nor true love."
--Theodore Roosevelt
I may succeed, I may fail. Thanks for helping me out of the twilight.
One of my favorite barenaked ladies songs happens to relate to the topic also and I copied the lyrics below.
"You can always get it right next time, next time
You can always get it right next time
You can count on me to mess it up
You can count on me to let you down again
And in time you'll see that I'm your only friend
CHORUS (x2)
Comfort in community obliterated
Given opportunity I hesitated
Even my humility's humiliated
CHORUS (x2)
Next time, next time
When you die they make a list of every love you never kissed
Of each regret and each mistake
Every choice you'll fail to make
Oh well...
Oh well...
Oh well...
It's a shame I have to wait until the ending
Everything I've yet to break is surely bending
Every vow I ever take is just pretending
That this mess I make is worth defending"
I feel I have gotten too personal on my photo blog lately. I do that because I want to show people my photos. It happens that most people who visit that site are also friends I like to share my "blog" comments with, but not all of them are and so I will post this here. For example, the guy who interviewed me on Mathworks wanted my URL so he could check out my photo blog and for obvious reasons, I didn't give it to him. Plus, there is someone here in Germany who doesn't know about this blog with whom I am really frustrated because she is letting fear control her right now. Its driving me nuts. (Aarrrgh - for all those who know that joke...)
In other news, I find it comical that my roommate sneaks out of the apartment in the middle of the night to go sleep at someone else's place and thinks closing his door will make me think he was here the whole time...
I want to thank you all, my friends, for your encouragement. The last two and a half months have been awesome. If not always pleasant, relaxing and "easy", they have been GREAT! I have learned quite a bit and grown, too. I have always been afraid of failing, of trying something and having it not work out the way I wanted. I was scared out of my mind that I would try to stay in Europe and I wouldn't be able to do it. Financial, social, and time pressure all woke me before 7am every single day. I was scared. Sometimes I still am. But because you guys encouraged me, I feel like I have made great strides toward not letting fear control me. Everything isn't completely fixed yet, but I feel now like I have at least given it my best. I won't wonder in 6 months, "What if I had just tried?"
"Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs
even though checkered by failure than to take rank with these poor spirits
who neither enjoy much or suffer much. Be wise, they live in the gray twilight
that know not of victory, nor defeat. Nor true sorrow nor true love."
--Theodore Roosevelt
I may succeed, I may fail. Thanks for helping me out of the twilight.
One of my favorite barenaked ladies songs happens to relate to the topic also and I copied the lyrics below.
"You can always get it right next time, next time
You can always get it right next time
You can count on me to mess it up
You can count on me to let you down again
And in time you'll see that I'm your only friend
CHORUS (x2)
Comfort in community obliterated
Given opportunity I hesitated
Even my humility's humiliated
CHORUS (x2)
Next time, next time
When you die they make a list of every love you never kissed
Of each regret and each mistake
Every choice you'll fail to make
Oh well...
Oh well...
Oh well...
It's a shame I have to wait until the ending
Everything I've yet to break is surely bending
Every vow I ever take is just pretending
That this mess I make is worth defending"
I feel I have gotten too personal on my photo blog lately. I do that because I want to show people my photos. It happens that most people who visit that site are also friends I like to share my "blog" comments with, but not all of them are and so I will post this here. For example, the guy who interviewed me on Mathworks wanted my URL so he could check out my photo blog and for obvious reasons, I didn't give it to him. Plus, there is someone here in Germany who doesn't know about this blog with whom I am really frustrated because she is letting fear control her right now. Its driving me nuts. (Aarrrgh - for all those who know that joke...)
In other news, I find it comical that my roommate sneaks out of the apartment in the middle of the night to go sleep at someone else's place and thinks closing his door will make me think he was here the whole time...
# posted by Kyle @ 3:05 AM 
