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Obviously, I should be spending more of my time getting a job...

All I want is your understanding.
As in the small lack of affections.
"Why is this my life?" is almost everybody's question.

And I've tried, everything but suicide...
but it's crossed my mind.

I prefer peace.
Wouldn't have to have one worldly possession.
But essentially I'm an animal,
so just what do I do, with all the aggression?

Well I've tried, everything but suicide...
but it's crossed my mind.

Life is a one way street ain't it?
If you could paint it, I'd chalk myself going in the right direction.
So I go all the way.
Like I really really know, but the truth is, I'm only guessing.

And I've tried, everything but suicide...
ooh but it's crossed my mind. Just a thought.

It's even dark in the daytime.
It's not just good, it's great depression.
When I was lost I even found myself looking in the gun's direction.

And so I've tried, everything but suicide...
but yes, it's crossed my mind.

But I'm fine.

I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate HATE Apple, iPod and iTunes. I can't get iTunes to load into its library music which I want to add to my iPod. So, of course, I want to use a better software, like ephpod. But the fuckers at Apple seem to have "modified" the firmware for the iPod (which I unknowingly installed) so that I can no longer use ephpod. The computer recognizes the iPod not as a disk, even though it can be used as a disk, so ephpod cannot do its thing.

I am so fucking angry right now. I have spent 2 hours trying to reload the music onto my iPod because of all of the evil bullshit that Apple stands for. They're worse than Microsoft. At least Microsoft doesn't pretend to be your buddy then stick you in the ass. Fucking blackmailing assholes.

Fuck you Apple.

First attempt at Pasta Basilico: Failed.

I burnt the onions and scorched the garlic, used too much olive oil and wound up with drops of it burning my entire right arm and hand.

But, now I have a Basilikum plant in my window that smells awesome and I have learned several things for attempt number two.

Somehow, it seems that everywhere I go, I make the most amazing and supportive friends.

The last couple weeks have been very stressful for me. Stress is a development of one's own imagination but that doesn't make its effects any less real. So I thank all of you for being there. Listening sometimes when I needed to vent. Telling me to suck it up and quit being a bitch when I was venting too much.

I had to go to London for a day recently and when I came back, I was greeted at the airport. I got off the plane, got through passport control and was walking out of the baggage claim area. A woman asked me in German where I was coming from. I stumbled a bit, just glad to be back in Germany before replying. Then I got hit with a giant piece of cardboard. I got corralled with this piece of cardboard blocking the person pushing me. There, around the corner were several of my friends. You cannot imagine how ridiculously happy that made me. I barely knew where I was, just standing there, smiling and giggling... It was incredible. I say to you my friends, thank you. For all of you who're always there when I've been bitching and complaining about something in the last three months and to those of you who were there to celebrate with me on Friday.

At Last.fm, they will keep track of what you listen to and tell you what your most listened to artists are and recommend other music based on what other people listen to and tags that people put on the music. Anyway, the point is, there was a thing there where people where calculating how mainstream they are. The calculation method goes like this: Take the average number of listeners for each of your top 10 listened to artists (or favorite if you're not a participating member) and divide that number by the number of Radiohead fans. (I guess at the time, Radiohead had the most listeners...?) Here is my calculation.

My top ten artists.
Marlo's mix (a mixed album that Marlo made for me) - 1 (that's me)
BNL - 82627
mike doughty - 10513
Guster - 41542
TMBG - 44285
Wir Sind Helden - 30509
30 seconds to mars - 31336
Red Hot Chili Peppers - 293005
The Features - 7862
Outkast - 160059

Total - 701739
Average - 70173.9

Radiohead - 323179

How Mainstream am I? - 21.7%

I was lost, so as a hint, the way to find out how many listeners there are for your top artists (or your favorite ten, if you're not a member), is easy. On the homepage: http://www.last.fm, just type into the search bar your top artist. Next to the name of the artist, it shows the number of fans. Record this number for each of your ten artists, then carry out the above-described grade school algebra and figure out how mainstream you are.

Everyone should use the radiohead as a reference, but I'd just like to point out that the number should probably be compared against the average of the top ten artists overall. Unfortunately, I have not found a way to find the top ten artists of all time. (I have found a way to get the weekly top artist, but that's not the same.)

I was very surprised to see Muse, a band that I started listening to about 3 years ago, in that top ten weekly artists list at number 5. I never, ever would have expected that.

Here's the weekly top ten from last.fm:
1. Red Hot Chili Peppers - 47779
2. Radiohead - 43769
3. The Beatles - 42413
4. Coldplay - 40369
5. Muse - 34854
6. Death Cab For Cutie - 33403
7. Pink Floyd - 32716
8. Green Day - 32673
9. System of a Down - 30787
10. Nirvana - 30162

I would like to share with you all the poem I wrote for today's photo on my photo blog.


There was a Rose, for which he sought.
'Gainst all logic, his feelings fought
To show that Rose that he did care.

Past the thorns he chased the bloom,
Knowing well, could be joy or doom.
To gain her love, he took that dare.

"Dearest Rose, you're looking fine.
Though forbidd'n, I'd make you mine,
I want for you what you want best.

When I look, you smile and wink.
With high hopes, it makes me think,
That it is here our hearts both rest."

And so the fool extends his hand,
Careful where his fingers land.
As he reaches, she's to-and-fro.

She pricks his hand and he withdraws.
A drop of blood quickly down'rd falls.
She makes a sign that he should go.

As he leaves, per her desire,
His wounded heart stings with fire.
She calls in his retreat,
------"I'll see you soon."


When I 'grow up' am I going to forget how to love blindly? Will I force myself never to fall for another girl without being reassured of getting something in return? Its dangerous and it hurts, but its the best way!

La Vita é Bella (Life is Beautiful) is an incredible movie.