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I apologize for hurting people in one of my most recent entries. It hurt several people that I would complain so much. Most of you have been such wonderful friends. I have chosen to come here instead of staying some place where I would be near to my friends. Or at least nearer to them.

I cannot say anything that would not be hurtful to people. If I am sad, some of you will be upset. If I am lonely, some of you will point out to me that it is my fault that I am lonely (which may or may not be true) and then be upset. If I am happy, some of you will be upset that I am happy and you are not here.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage the change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

I like that prayer, but I guess what I need now is a prayer that is more like:

God, grant me the ability to see the future because while I try to make all the best decisions today to make my friends, family, loved ones, and myself happy now AND in the future, I cannot know with certainty if I am doing the right thing in any given day regarding any given decision. Could you please send me a crystal ball and tarot cards for Christmas? They will be quite useful in making sure that I never hurt anyone again.

Sometimes I am unhappy. That comes from all sorts of things; things which I have some control over and things which I have no control over. Sometimes it is a direct effect of my actions, sometimes it is a side-effect of my actions.
Sometimes I am extremely happy. That also comes from all sorts of things; things which I have some control over and things which I have no control over. Sometimes it is a direct effect of my actions, sometimes it is a side-effect of my actions. Right now, it seldom happens for 'no reason' at all.

I hope all of you are granted the foresight to make the decisions which will make you the most happy. I do not have this foresight.