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Some days I am capable of being extremely paranoid and drastic and making myself feel like shit. Today, I woke up and looked up at the cieling. I noticed several black spots in my vision and I then let my imagination run wild. I started to imagine that I was going blind. I didn't just imagine it, I half believed it. I guess it is one of my fears. I have thought about it before, in great depth, much like today, that I will lose my vision. I imagined that, but then I imagined a lot after that. I imagined some of the important things that I would lose. I, of course, thought about all the people who I would never see again, quite literally. Sure, my friends may not all be absolutely beautiful, but today, it made me extreeeemely sad to think that I would never again see even the ugly ones. Then I started to think about all the things that I love to do that I would never again be able to do. I imagined the use of computer for communicating with my friends, the use of my ipod to listen to music, the use of my vision to drive to visit people. I actually even started to imagine writing a letter to iPod asking them to add an audio-menu feature so that I could still navigate around my ipod to hear music.

It is beautiful outside today. I am going to go out and enjoy the sun and the weather.

I love wienerschnitzel. Yum yum yum. It tastes so good. Yum.