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God, give me
the serenity to accept -- even joyfully--
the things (about me) that I can't change,
the courage to change the things (about me)
that I ought to change, and
the wisdom to know one from the other.
Serenity Prayer (adapted)

Cottleston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie,
A fly can't bird, but a bird can fly.
Ask me a riddle and I reply:
"Cottleston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie"

Cottleston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie,
A fish can't whistle and neither can I.
Ask me a riddle and I reply:
"Cottleston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie"

Cottleston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie,
Why does a chicken, I don't know why.
Ask me a riddle and I reply:
"Cottleston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie"
Cottleston Pie, from Winnie-the-Pooh (in The Tao of Pooh)

I have been dreading graduation. I do not want to leave this place, I love the people here, I love the challenge here. I love that I can stay up til 2am and be ok the next day. Some days I realize that I have to move on. When I can accept that, I feel so much better. I enjoy the present so much more and fear the future so much less.

How often do I try to be someone that I'm really not? Every time I have realized I was doing it, I have felt so much better, so relieved, like I was carrying an unnecessary burdon. That's what I get out of the Cottleston Pie song. I need to realize that I can't do everything others can do, some things can't be done, and not everything that is done needs to be or can be understood. I just hope I can figure out which things I can do but have not yet worked hard enough for. Like getting a job that I like. Like a happy post-graduation future while being at least somewhat realistic about how much money I will make or what position I might hold.